My China Joy, where are you?

My daughter is alive. She is not of my womb. She is in China. She will be born off a plane from paperwork, official stamps and travels instead of my womb. I will never feel her kick or push her little heel on my belly. There will never be morning sickness or aversions to popcorn. Yet still, I feel her. I sense her. She is somewhere right now. I cannot hold her and rock her to sleep. I cannot sing to her a lullaby. I cannot hold her close as I feed her nor can I whisper in her ear “I love you”. Continue reading

Lots of changes!

The last 5 months have been filled with so many emotions and changes in our lives! We felt it would be time we update you on them. In September 2015 we began our journey with a new adoption agency. This means everything had to begin from scratch. A bit of a heartbreak for me, ok, a lot! I cried. This also meant that the large stacks of paperwork had to be updated or totally re-done and sent in to CCAI – our new adoption agency. And this isn’t even the big news! In the middle of our international adoption, we made an international move! Yes. On December 17, 2015 we moved from Germany back home Continue reading

Whoa, here we go! The process so far…part 2

After picking the country we wanted to adopt from and finding the adoption agency to work with, it was time for the deep-dive into the process. There are two main parts to this process. First is the adoption agency that deals with the child referral, child placement, a full range of consulting and social services. Lifeline Children’s Services was founded in 1981 when they began promoting the sanctity of life through domestic adoption services. In 1999, they began responding to the needs of orphans internationally and currently have 15 countries in which they coordinate adoption services.
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Whoa, here we go! The process so far…part 1

I wanted to take the time to detail some of the process that we have gone through since we started on this adventure. Marta and I have collectively done a lot of reading – looking to ingest as much information as possible. Marta is consuming information that deals a lot of with the parenthood, expectations, experiences and the emotional side of the house. I have focused more on process, paperwork, timeline and difficulty of being a US citizen living abroad going through the process.

We are living in Germany, so there is a layer of complexity added. Continue reading